It's Back

It's Back,
Although I think it never left
I got what I wanted out of life and i though it had left
I was just kidding myself
It never left
It was just waiting
For something to go wrong
And it reared its ugly head
And i cried
For quite some time

Struggling to Stay Sane

If i could cut i would, but i know my friends would be disappointed.

If i could drink i would, but i know my family would be disappointed.

If i could draw i would, but i know whatever i try, i will be disappointed.

If i could commit suicide i would, but i know everyone would be disappointed in me.

When you are to afraid to do anything because of what others think and feel.
Isn't that why people self harm?
when the weight of the world is too much to bare.

It will pass, stay strong!

I know it will pass. That's what i'm waiting for. So i don't have to ask anyone for help.

I don't ask for help because i don't want to disappoint.

But even then, I am a disappointment and there is nothing I can do.

Nothing.

Im lost.

I'm stuck.

There is never anything for me to do but to cry and wait.

It's hard.

And i'm losing my grip.

The happy mask is slipping.

The feelings being dulled.

And there is still nothing I can do.

I think I'm A Little Bit Brilliant

I had checked my other page, to see if there was any new comments that would make me want to write my stories for them,
and there was.
A couple of people threatened to post mean things to me if i didn't continue the story.
And it made me laugh. i laughed while i wrote the story, i laughed when i killed off the main character in a heartbreaking way and i laughed as more comments came flying in.
Then Chris (dancer series) was being a little bit mean to me so i wrote him a quick ending where he died and laughed when he told me it was really dramatic but he thought it was a shit way to end the seires.

So i have concluded that even when i am just writing for laughs, writing to piss someone off or just writing, i am a little bit brilliant :D
It was a good confidence boost :D

The Dancers Bucks Party

And it is here :) Managed to overcome my severe reoccuring writers block and finish the second last chapter ever of the dancer series. The next one will be the wedding and completely fluff-tastic so stay tuned :D

"... So the flower people can't get there until 12 but that should still give us heaps of time to set up everything else." Chris babbled as Jacob drove them home from the rehearsal dinner. “It’s all coming together, finally! I can’t believe it has been almost two years since you proposed. It feels like just yesterday we were in high school. I wonder what everyone is up to. Other than my Grooms maids and maid of honours." 
" Are your multiple maids of honours planning anything for your buck’s night?" Jacob asked.
" Probably. It will probably involve some sexy male strippers and a lot of alcohol." Chris said.
" How about you let them celebrate without you and you come with me. I have a pretty special night planned." Jacob said slyly.
" But we can do as many special nights as we want. Tonight’s all about strippers." Chris said.
" My night involves a stripper as well. A very special one." Jacob said.
" You can strip for me all you want after we are married." Chris said rolling his eyes.
" It's not me! Come on Chris. I swear if you don't have fun with me you can join the girls afterwards. It won't take that long." Jacob said almost begging.
" Fine. The girls can warm the strippers up for me." Chris said pulling out his phone and calling Jessie.
 

That Teacher

I was going through my mums hard drive and found some stories i wrote a couple of years ago :P Lots are unfinished but this one I completed and it still makes me laugh. Enjoy :)

Mr. Saxon, at 26 years of age, is the youngest teacher Saint Mary’s School for Girls had ever hired. The principal (Mrs. Moule) took a risk with him. She had heard about some of the great work he had done even though he had only been teaching for two years. The risk paid off because he got girls interested in English and producing a great quality of work.

Mr. Saxon is every girls dream. He is one of the best teachers the girls have ever had. He understands why you’re having problems and knows when you’re lying, but still takes it easy on you. Not forgetting that he is drop dead sexy. He had short brown hair, brown eyes that are always smiling, tall and reasonably fit.

Nobody wants to let him down. If you do well in his class, he will give you a breathtaking smile. If you misbehave he will make sure to make you feel extremely guilty until you show him that you have been working hard.

He keeps a strictly professional relationship with all the teachers and girls at the School, even though he was the figure in most of their fantasies. And he didn’t want to go further until he met Shari Floyd.

Creative Juices Flowing

Alas, i wrote!
It was only short but it still counts.
All it took to get my creative juices flowing
Was a crush >.<

Special sauce ;)

I worked at one of those fast food chains. It was boring and tedious work. The only good thing was Anthony. He was tall for his age with short brown hair and a delicious ass.
We had started on the same day and instantly became friends.
A couple of weeks after we started he told me he liked me. I was a bit shocked. We kissed then and ever since every time we have a shift together we always get up to mischief.
 
Today was no different.
 

Dark Places

Writing was my happy place,
Where I went to to get away,
I thought it was what kept me going,
I was wrong. 

That Damn Beanie

A Story I wrote for another of my gay friends. This one is also about a dancer but this dancer has a very firm idea of what he wants and Daniel is willing to obey. 8000+ words :) Finally Complete :D

Daniels heart was pounding.
He had stayed behind after school after sport class to put the markers away when he saw it. That stupid beanie. The beanie that Noah wears everywhere. The beanie that Daniel secretly loves.
Daniel picked up the beanie and could smell the boyish scent of Noah on it. Daniel inhaled deeply then looked around to make sure no one had seen.
He had to give it back. He had finished putting the markers away and walked up to the boys change rooms to see if he was still there.
Daniel finally gained some courage and opened the door and saw Noah's bag.
" Noah?" Daniel called, still a little nervous.
" Oh, hey Daniel." Noah said walking out from behind a corner.
Daniel stopped. His mouth, his thoughts, his whole body stopped at the sight in front of him.
Noah stood there, hair wet, shirtless with only a pair of tights that all the dance boys had to wear.
Daniel could see a bulge quite clearly through the navy blue tights. He didn't have extremely defined abs but you could tell there was some muscle there. His arms and pecks were more defined as he needed the strength to lift the dancer girls.
" Are you okay?" Noah asked concerned.
Daniel quickly snapped out of it and he said, " Oh right. Yeah I'm good I just zoned out for a second."
" Okay." Noah said turning to his bag.
Daniel took his eyes off Noah's nice round ass for long enough to notice Noah's eyes were red and he looked sad.
" Are you alright Noah?" Daniel asked.
" Yeah. No. No I don't think so." Noah said unsure.

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